To Scribbling.....

                                         

    

  Hi, This is something I write for myself , sharing my happiness and excitement with myself. I'm a girl,becoming a woman (I said woman , because I'm in my mid 20 s.) like everyone , I have a decent job. But I'm not happy with that 😑. I  don't want to invest 3/ 4th of my day into something which I don't like. That's the point. I decided to do something. But I don't know anything.

 Initially, I tried content writing. I did some good pieces of work and I even got paid for it. But gradually i missed the spark to write. I forgot how to write. After months, I wished to write again.i thought of brushing up my writing skills and joined a course for writing. But within days, I quit for a silly reason saying " someone graded my work very badly and that stone-hearted person said that I'm not fit for writing " you see, it'll break your heart right ? I too believed that I'm not fit for writing. I started asking questions to myself like, why am I not able to write ? am I a bad writer ? will I wont be write that makes readers feel good ?😨. This questions started killing me. Instead of finding answers, I started trying to escape from these questions. I started blaming the situations and surroundings. I started blaming everything for not writing and eventually I forgot that once I was passionate about writing. After days, I started finding threads and needles to be fascinating. I started watching videos and eventually loved how they work. Then I thought this is something I wish to do. So I started searching for classes, watching even more videos.But end up doing nothing. Again to square one 😕. What is my passion ? What is my interest ? I see every people going back of something, putting their time and effort into something. But me, sitting idle thinking what to do ? This thought started haunting me again, not allowing me to sleep.

 And finally today, with my loved one's push, putting me into a place of guilt and after a long bitter and sweet conversations,I decided to go back of words,go into the world of words✍. I don't know where this is going to take me. but I'm starting today with a small piece of hope that it'll take me to the place I deserve. Little by little, words by words, sentence by sentence I'll reach my place. There was a question from my loved one " What if someone says you're not fit for writing and what if your mind says this isn't for you ?", I said, "I'll give it a  try and not going to stop" . 

                              yes ill try, try my best to excel my craft. Happy writing... 😄